Last Saturday (March 11), as we were going around doing our weekly shopping and errands, I was suddenly and absolutely seized with the feeling of “Get ready.” I was almost manic for a while, feeling this great pressure to get ready for whatever lay ahead, without knowing exactly what it was, but sensing that it was huge and would have an enormous impact when it arrived.
On Monday (March 13), I was standing in the house in one of those moments where I had nothing in particular to focus upon and clearly felt myself turn inwardly toward the east, the direction where the new dawn arrives. I have long felt that the recent years on Planet Earth have been increasingly dark, like going through a dark passage of some kind before something new can take place. The theme of the “new dawn” is right there on the home page of the Operation Terra site, and it speaks to me deeply of a time when we will be beyond all of this turmoil and safely tucked away in a place that will mark a new dawn for humanity as a whole.
The intensity of that feeling receded and was replaced by a lot of quiet inner listening. I felt empowered to find myself “facing East” in expectancy of what will come when the new dawn arrives. I remembered a verse in the Bible that speaks about this expectancy:
“For just as the lightning come out from the east, and is seen even in the west, so will be the coming of the Son of man.” — Matthew 24:27
Our new world is coming, and I can feel its approach. Just saying that brings a quickening of my pulse and a subtle joy in thinking about it.
Over the rest of the week, I was experiencing heavy clearings until last night and the week had several moments of little flashbulbs going off, without my knowing exactly what they were showing me.
For example, I was sitting at the dining room table. The living room area is just to the left, part of one big room. (It’s called a “Great room” floor plan; we don’t have separate rooms for dining and relaxing.) I suddenly “saw” that I could switch the positions of two pieces of furniture and it would create the perfect setting for a multimedia studio. I could almost see the equipment that would go there, but still don’t know why we would have it or for what it would be used. One piece of furniture is the keyboard I was given to create the OT anthem; the other piece is a futon lounger that can also be set up to be used as a sofa.
Just switching them around would set that end of the room up for some electronics over in front of the fireplace (which we never use) and create the perfect setting for something, but what? I kept feeling it would be some kind of multimedia setup, complete with large screen TV/monitor, speakers, and other electronics. I also felt like it would somehow be connected with the “op,” but could not go any further than that. I let it go and am content to let it show me when it’s time for that piece to show up.
As part of our errands last Saturday, we also picked up our copy of the Moana Blu-ray disc that we had pre-ordered from Wal-Mart. I was so filled with this feeling of “Get ready” that we stocked up on household goods while we were there, feeling like it was a good time to get them. That evening, we tried to watch/listen to the disc and were upset that the sound just didn’t seem right. It did not have the presence or richness that we had experienced in the theater or when we listened to the soundtrack CD and couldn’t understand why.
Long story short, it turned out that the software we were using to play the disc (you need special software for Blu-ray discs if you play them on a computer) just wasn’t up to the job, but before we discovered that, we also discovered that our computer speakers were part of the equation. There were only two of them plus a subwoofer and the disc was encoded in such a way that it wasn’t being properly sent through those speakers. 7.1 channel sound through a 2.1 sound system didn’t work.
On Monday night, I looked to see what was available on Amazon that would meet our needs and not cost too much. We ended up buying some inexpensive surround speakers that were so small, I wondered if they could do the job, but got guidance to go ahead with the purchase, so I did. It also felt like it was somehow part of our “Get ready” mandate, but I don’t know why. It still feels that way.
The next morning, I went into my office to begin working, and a piece of paper was hanging out at an angle from one of the cardboard magazine files I have on the top of the shelving I have along one wall of my office, which acts as a bookshelf. (I use the magazine files to hold the many small booklets, manuals and catalogs that would otherwise be difficult to organize.) I went over to straighten the piece of paper and pulled it out to see what it was.
It was the list of components that had shipped as part of my computer and it was in the software file instead of the hardware file, which was strange because I am pretty careful about keeping things filed correctly. Before I put it back in the correct place, I glanced at the list to see what it said about the Blu-ray disc drive that came with this computer, and there was a reference to a piece of software (PowerDVD) that had come with it.
I had tried that particular software back then and hadn’t been impressed with it, so I had gotten the “Platinum” version of the Nero 11 package that I used to burn my files onto backup discs, which also contained the Nero Blu-ray player that we had been using since March of 2012, when we got the computer 5 years ago. However, since we were having this problem with that software (it wasn’t giving us the sound we wanted), I went online to see what PowerDVD was doing these days, and I downloaded a trial version of the current release.
Bingo! Blu-ray problem solved, at least as much as it could be solved with those older speakers. There was a sale going on, so I got the PowerDVD Ultra 16 package, which also included some other software for burning discs and all sorts of other functions I haven’t figured out how to use yet, but it was a bargain, for sure, and the timing was perfect for me.
Needless to say, when the speakers arrived at noon on Thursday, it just so happened that, by then, I had finished the work I had to do for that day, so I took the afternoon to install the speaker system and took a trial run with the new combination. Wow! I couldn’t believe how much better everything looked and sounded. Everything worked really well in this setting. Although I think the speakers would not handle a larger space very well, they are perfect for this room (which is really a small bedroom that I have converted into an office).
Movies are our only form of entertainment and when my husband came home, I couldn’t wait to demonstrate the quality of playback we were getting with the new setup. It felt like it was also part of “getting ready” for something that is coming down the road, although I don’t know yet what it is.
When I had found that piece of paper hanging out of the magazine file, it had puzzled me, but then—looking back at what it had led to—I felt strongly that I had gotten some help from upstairs, and that in itself felt so good! The result also felt like a little dose of goodness sent our way, and I am grateful for every bit of goodness we have.
I have been listening within all week, ever since I got that “Get ready” feeling, and what has surfaced is an inner push to get all of the remaining clutter out of my life, get everything organized on my computer, and learn the software to handle graphics efficiently. When I felt that inner turn toward the east, something clicked, like a peg dropping into the correct hole. It felt like it was time for me to get ready to receive what is coming next, and it also felt like it was time for me to stop working for pay and to begin working for the Hosts and the “op” once again. Learning to use the software for computer graphics is somehow part of my preparation for that.
I can feel that the Hosts are very close at all times. Yesterday was the first day I didn’t have massive clearings, and for that, I am grateful, too. Nonetheless, I am still feeling this inner urge to “Get ready” and right now it’s taking the form of “get organized.” I have tons of material all over my computer — fonts, images, files, work I have done for others, backup copies of articles and web site stuff, downloaded videos, etc. — scattered all over the place. It feels like it’s time to organize it in a way that makes it easy to find and use and it’s time for me to get serious about who I am working for.
The Hosts have told me that they still want me to learn these computer graphics skills and that I will be getting a new computer system sometime in April or May. I wondered what I could possibly need a new computer for (except that mine is out of date and groaning under the load of processing graphics, which chew up a lot of resources) and was told that I will have certain limitations lifted from me and will know what to do when the time comes.
This time, I don’t have a checklist of things to do so much as an overall feeling that gets a little stronger every day. At the same time, I feel like I am relaxing into the journey itself even more. I don’t know what will come, but I am content to wait and have plenty to do in the meantime. I am still working on a book that I should have finished by the time my husband and I take a week off from April 1-9, and the Hosts have told me to not actively seek new work (which always brings a little pinch when I think of only living off of what my husband brings home), but when I made that inner turn to the east, it felt like it was time to commit to looking forward to the new dawn that is coming and trusting that we will have enough to make it through.
I have lost interest in outer events to such an extent that I only check the headlines once in a while and only read the summaries on usawatchdog.com. It all seems like so much irrelevant noise. It also reminds me of an experience I had many years ago that I may have mentioned before, but bears repeating now, even if I have said it before.
It was a waking experience, in which I found myself in the midst of some kind of battle. Bullets were whizzing back and forth, and even passing through me, but they didn’t hurt me. This got boring after a while, so I just sat down on the ground where I had been standing, and the bullets kept whizzing past, over my head. THAT got boring, too, so I got up, walked away from the battle, and found myself in a lovely countryside setting, with flowery meadows, blue skies and fluffy white clouds sailing gaily overhead. Birds were singing and the entire surrounding landscape was peaceful, sparkling clean and clear. I looked over to where the battle was still raging, off to one side of where I was. I noticed that all of the participants were so fascinated by the battle, they were totally oblivious of all of this peaceful beauty that surrounded them. They, too, could have just walked away, but they were too engaged in the battle to even notice what was all around them.
That’s how it seems to me today. When I look at the noise and the many battles going on for power, I realize that I am not fascinated by the battle the way the participants are, and therefore I am free to just enjoy the peace and quiet of this place and the life I lead. All of that outer noise and battle is going to get along just fine without my participation, and it feels more and more like I have other things lined up to experience that will be much more pleasant and rewarding.
In closing, all I can say is that I am no longer focused on events of any kind and it is a more peaceful, trusting way to live. I am grateful for the many blessings of each day, and I feel like I wake up in a different world than I was in the night before. It also feels like I am moving at warp speed and everything has become a fluid stream instead of discrete events.
My sense of time is totally out of whack, and it’s not just because the clocks got turned ahead again for Daylight Savings Time. I have no sense of time anymore. I just do what I am doing until it’s done and rely on my planner to remind me of what’s on my plate for the day. Much of the time, it’s just “chop wood, carry water” kinds of maintenance tasks, but under the surface, a great deal of movement and change is taking place. I do occasionally wonder about what lies ahead, but most of the time, I am content to wait and find out when it arrives.
That’s all I have to say right now, so until the next time…
Love to all,