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August 28, 2016

More of the Same

Well, my perceptions this week only confirm and extend the impressions I had last week and wrote about in my most recent post, “Escape Velocity,” which is why I have titled this post, “More of the Same.”

Everywhere I look, no matter what I look at, I see “more of the same.” There is absolutely nothing new, but rather a sickening, logical extension of everything that was already in motion last week and continues its trajectory. I also continue MY trajectory, and using my weekly trip into town as a reference point only confirmed and extended my ongoing sense that I am actively withdrawing from participating in or even comprehending this 3D reality.

I have been losing interest in outer news for quite a while this year, and that has only increased. The international juggling for power, the egregious repression of truth in the mainstream media, and the continuing falsification of economic data has only increased and continues to increase. The pillaging of the planet continues. Nothing new is emerging that will change the course of any of this, and so that, too, is “more of the same.”

On the other hand, on a personal level, I have been surprised at how my work has changed and is changing. I still feel that the time is short before my work changes to something else entirely, but in the meantime, the Hosts have encouraged me to upgrade a piece of software (CorelDRAW Graphics Suite) to the current version (version 18, aka X8). My previous version (version 11) won’t even install on my present operating system (Windows 7). I am getting to do more book layouts, not just editing, so my ability to exercise my creativity is slowly increasing, which I very much enjoy. I have also reached clarity on the kinds of work I DON’T want to do, and that is very freeing.

Even though so much seems like “more of the same,” what strikes me the most is the difference between “inner time” and “outer time.” When I am lying in bed at night, waiting for sleep, I can feel just how fast I am moving internally, whereas when I even glance at the headlines on zerohedge.com or read the summaries on usawatchdog.com, I am struck by how slowly things seem to be progressing “out there.”

Persistence of anything continues to decline. I do find myself taking brief “video snapshots” that I can replay in my mind for a short time afterward, but otherwise, as soon as I have walked out of the store or hung up the phone, or clicked off the page I was looking at, I do not retain any of it. It is as if it has not happened at all. I am also finding that, as soon as I have “gotten” the essence of a book I am working on, I am “done with it,” even though I might still have a week or more of work I have to actually move through in order to complete it at the physical level and provide a finished product for the client’s use. It becomes more difficult to maintain interest long enough to complete it because in a very fundamental way, I have already moved on beyond it.

It is so clear to me that there is a profound but subtle process of change going on. While I still can’t put a date on anything, it’s hard to register that September will be here on Thursday of this coming week. Where did August go (and for that matter, July or June)? Will September and October fly by, too? I already have work in progress and other work coming in September that will keep me busy, and I can’t help but notice that each of these people who I am doing books for are operating in a “business as usual” mode. Each of them has plans for their book and their next book, and here I am, knowing that it COULD all go “poof” in an instant, and yet knowing that I have to keep showing up until I don’t.

All that I have mentioned, all that I can observe, all that I experience — it’s all truly “more of the same,” and at the same time, nothing is truly the same. It is all subtly changing and progressing toward its ultimate outcome, and I feel more and more like the immovable witness, past which it all streams and flows.

When we made our trip into town this weekend, the impressions I had last week had progressed to the point where everything except the people struck me as a stage set. At one point we passed a woman standing in her front yard, along a stretch of road that was heavily wooded. It seemed to me that the woman had been inserted into that landscape and the landscape itself seemed like it was made out of artificial materials. I did catch a glimpse of a puffy white cloud in a very blue sky, and the cloud and the sky seemed real, but nothing else did.

Inside the stores, the sense of walking around in a hologram was strong except when we zeroed in on what we were there to buy. Then it was our focus on it that made it seem real, but when we were driving along the road, I didn’t focus on anything in particular, so comparing these two experiences gives me a little more of what it really means when it’s said that “we create our own reality.” By that, I don’t mean the kind of “create your own reality” that movies like The Secret portray, or any of the various people and sites that put forth the Law of Attraction as being operative. Rather, what I am beginning to sense is that it’s when we realize (i.e. make real) who and what we really are (not just as a concept, but as a direct experience), then we perceive from a different perspective — that of Infinite Beingness — and that shifts our perception, which then creates our experience.

I’ve said that before and I’ll say it again: Perspective determines perception; perception defines experience. As I shift my internal “viewing place,” that leads me to have a different perspective (the place from which I view). That in turn leads me to perceive differently, which explains why I don’t see the scenery the same as I did before. I am perceiving it from a different viewing place, and that in turn affects my experience of it. My experience includes what I see with my physical senses and what I see or perceive as its meaning. It affects how I feel about what I see, as well.

Sensing that I am only peering in from another location entirely (or passing through, as it often seems) changes my relationship to what I am perceiving and changes my experience of it, as well. The scenery doesn’t feel like it applies to me personally. Looking at things like the drama playing out in the outer world becomes increasingly repugnant, as well. They feel so “off” that I can’t engage with them.

My sensitivity to energies seems to be increasing, too, and my ability to screen myself from having those energies come into my being is decreasing, so I am very careful about what movies I watch, even videos on YouTube or other sites. I seem to be able to watch training videos on how to use my software, but those are pretty neutral.

The bottom line is that everything that is in motion is proceeding along the lines it was already following, hence my referring to it as “more of the same.” Looking back, one can trace the steps that occurred to bring us where we are today, and one can see certain outcomes are more probable than others are. There are certain trends and there are certain occurrences that are beginning to signal where things are going. The number of earthquakes are increasing steadily. Housing markets are beginning to collapse in certain locations. Consumers are spending less. The US continues to make wars wherever it can. While all of these things are certainly “more of the same,” they are also intensifying and increasing in frequency.

If my inklings about the next two months are correct, it will certainly be “more of the same,” but there may also be some surprises, as well. The Hosts have told us that the Creator loves surprises, and we don’t have much time left for the present paradigm to continue. One of my favorite sayings is, “I am prepared to be totally amazed.” While I don’t know what to expect in detail, I also feel I am being steadily carried beyond the present paradigm, and for that I am extremely grateful.

Until the next time …

Traveler
traveler@anunorthodoxview.com

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48 Comments on “More of the Same

White buffalo
August 29, 2016 at 8:51 AM

Good morning Traveler.

Thank you for the report.

It is more of the same but now the world’s non-typical negative events are coming in to fast for me to analyze each one properly. Not that I need to analyze each one for verification at all. I already have enough information to know that this planet is in a once-in-millennium stage of ending ALL of the human domain madness that destoyed it’s life support systems, it’s chakras, and it purpose for being a host planet. What this means is without ultra Devine intervention the planet and human domain are at an increasing rate of unstoppable complete breakdown. The period of rapid time squeeze is here. What is non-typical ?

Germany just announcing it will pass an emergency bill to confiscate all food production from the farm to the fork. This has many negative effects on the both the populace mind set and national commerce. The pressure from the populace so far has not been great enough to force the government to tell them, ” What’s up ” ? The reason for this draconian move is global and this type of thinking will save lives but simultaneously end global commerce and this type of control-the-commerce mind set will jump the oceans at lightning speed.

Russia’s upper military command officers are no longer in pre-war mode but are underground in war mode. Not good. Many signs of readiness are included in this statement.

We are illegally in Syria and the president has ordered the shooting down of the only legal jets in the country. Usually this happens covertly. Pre-Gulf war type engagement. To do this publicly is a sign of desperation-of-survival. We are having to expose our selves and our world plans daily now mostly because of the freedoms of the Internet which will cease on Oct. 1, 2016.

Good news. I have recently learned that the Host and supporting entourage are monitoring EVERYHING that could possibly effect the OP on a phenomenal level, more than I could have imagined. It appears that the earth events are harder to deal with and predict than the human domain madness but they do have supreme recon of both halves of the problem. Don’t want to waste time on specifics but I really have a greater appreciation for the monitoring part of our up stairs assistance. Phenomenal what they have for technology concerning monitoring and effecting almost all types of global events.

It is not the events them selves that I monitor so much. It is the differences between what really happens verses what is reported to earthling that I use. Not so much the event. This is where the pre-mission information materializes and comes to my awareness.

Things can not speed up any faster on this planet than they are going now. So even though the world is truly facing more of the same it is certainly not at the same rate and can’t continue at this pace without a conclusion.

White buffalo

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Traveler
August 29, 2016 at 9:17 AM

White Buffalo,

That was precisely my point — namely, that what we can observe looks like a continuation (ergo “more of the same”) of what was already in motion, but at a greatly accelerated pace. Every point you listed bears that out. It also signifies to me the degree of desperation to make certain moves and that indicates the lateness of the hour, as well.

This morning, as I was preparing myself to move forward with the work I have to do today, the Hosts rang my ear and told me to prepare for great changes. In the corner of my mind, I wondered what I would tell the people I am doing this work for, but I think I won’t have to tell them anything much. If this change is as great as it sounded from what they said and the way they said it, it will be self-evident to everyone, and I won’t have to explain much at all.

I am curious about how you “have recently learned that the Host and supporting entourage are monitoring EVERYHING that could possibly effect the OP on a phenomenal level, more than I could have imagined. …” Was this something that was given to you directly, or did you read it somewhere, from some channeled source? If the latter, I would like to know the origin of the information. If the former, I would just like you to acknowledge that it came directly to you.

Love,
Traveler

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White buffalo
August 29, 2016 at 5:16 PM

Traveler,

I can sooooo relate to your pondering as to what to tell people you are currently working with. It is an encredible act of kindness and caring for you to ponder that because there are people in my world accross the entire spectrum of my life, work, children, grandchildren that will want to know, out of love, where I am and if they will see me again. The massive mental questions I am having to process just like what you stated are mind warping and can be spirit draining. I have my whole work force and loved one that deserve total respect and closure but it is my understanding that this ending could come as quick as the melon seed leaving your pressured fingers. That quick.

I hope this is not true but all indications are that there could be a snap in the forces holding back the four winds and the resulting kinetic energy could cause such an earthly upheaval that our mission would activate in short order. When this happens the people you and I are working with will probably no longer need our services and will realize the extent of the catastrophe. I think our working relationships will explain their self.

It is my understanding that the entire world will know, business as usual on planet earth has ended. This will help solve most of our work related partings.

The statements I make here are my own opinion of the truth after processing everything accessible to me in general ,combining it with the Host information to date and some current sources, Some of the assembled data for a statement I make arrives to me from the other side from whom ever, some channeled here to others and read by me in cyber world and then processed for comment. I don’t remember ever getting any new information from the Host anywhere out in cyber world. In fact I only remember seeing the word Host mentioned one time some where, some time and the message was so similar to the Host I just assumed it was the same. Don’t remember it changing anything about how I think because it was supporting and un knew. When supporting information aligns with what I feel as my truth and aligns with the messages I simply accept it as my truth. When I find information channeled or un channeled that contradicts my vision of OT and it not only doesn’t sound correct to me but it conflicts with the messages it does not go into a statement I make because it doesn’t feel like the truth or sound like the truth.

The Host have mentioned technology and tricks. It appears that other light beings know this also and sometimes it appears to get mentioned or channeled down here to cyber world to other people. The Host have also mentioned that other positive polarity forces have shown up and were cooperating in a manor that would make our OT slightly less chaotic. It is possible and logical to assume that some of this information would match the Host.

If there is going to be more than one evacuation going on simultaneously by two or more totally different groups I have concluded that because we have been told that we can not ” blow it ” then any and all information that I will need will be forwarded as needed and everything destabilizing will be vented.

I have found bits and pieces of supporting data and info out in cyber world relating to what you and the Host have expressed to me. As far as specific sites or entity’s that supported our mission along the way, that would be challenging to retrieve.

White buffalo

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Storm
August 29, 2016 at 9:10 AM

Traveler, this is apt description indeed. It is sickening.

More of the same, and then even more of the same, and yet more. Ad infinitum. STS polarity has complete domination and nobody dares to interfere.

Waiting is futile. What do we do? What can be done

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Traveler
August 29, 2016 at 9:28 AM

Storm, just last night, I characterized our apparent position as being in a “holding pattern,” similar to how an airplane is kept circling until it is clear for landing. That is what it looks like when seen from the outside. However, last night I also tapped in to how fast I am moving on the inner toward my next stop on the journey (which I assume is Midway), and just this morning, the Hosts rang my ear and told me to get ready for big changes.

I do not feel we can do ANYTHING to change the course that is playing out in front of us, so that requires a certain detachment from the drama, as well as letting go of our preferences as to how it will play out and what the outcomes will be. I CAN say that I can feel that I am ALREADY pulling away (actively withdrawing from) this density and am now convinced that I have, indeed, attained “escape velocity” — I have escaped the “gravitational pull” of 3D and am moving steadily toward something else entirely. I can FEEL that motion when I am lying in the darkness and not distracted by what my physical eyes might perceive.

Also, as I tried to explain toward the end of the post, my perceptions are changing to more of how they will be when I am in full connection again, so while we can be discouraged by what we see going on “out there,” it turns out that “more of the same” for us is really GOOD news. We are moving steadily toward OUR destination, while everything else is moving steadily toward theirs. I have long wondered how it would be when the timelines really began pulling apart from one another, and I think this is what is going on now.

Time will tell the truth of all things, and time is definitely growing shorter every day. Hang in there. As the saying goes, “It ain’t over ’till it’s over.”

Love,
Traveler

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White buffalo
August 29, 2016 at 8:01 PM

Storm,

Waiting is not futile or optional. Everyday people are changing from negative to positive. Don’t know if it’s true but I have read where another 1 million people have switched to STO from STS during the time dilation. Whether or not these new STOs are going to Terra is debatable . Don’t know if the time dilation was in the original OT blue print or just a possibility. If the time dilation was in the original blue print then the additional people were probably included also. Don’t know if any of it is even true. Just pleasant related reading.

Don’t focus on what time we might have left, focus on how far we’ve came and what we have endured just to still be here. None of the systems are functioning here. Breakdown is on every level. This is not the place for some people and never will be. But we signed up for this and we’re gonna finish it.

Stopping here would be like spending 4 weeks climbing Mt. Everest and stopping two steps from the top. The whole journey for nothing.

There have been over 10,000 giant , flawless, highly complex imprints on the earth’s snow and crop zones. Totally non earth signatures. The sun and earth are behaving in never before seen fashion. It would not be logical for us to do anything but wait for mandatory events to play out not just because we’ve waited this long but because it is more than obvious that global tension on every level of life within the human domain can not get any higher. Giant implosions and explosions are happening on several levels of society, in the earth, on the earth, and in the heavens and the triggers are set for this chaos and carnage to increase into escape velocity.

There are now to many daily dynamic non-typical earth and sun changes to even properly examine . Totally unheard of events. There are many reasons time is on our side. Some of these events are facinating but they are now happening so close together it is becoming more facinating putting all of the pieces together rather than studying at a particular piece. That is how much is happening. There are people who have been living in unimaginable suffering here and globally. I would guess at this time that over 5 billion people would simply like for the show to end. Especially those that have had a rough tour and know the feeling of Terra.

I can see the look on your face when you read, ” more of the same ” . I said to myself , ” Storm will like that headline ” ! Understanding the advantages of this waiting is helpful in accepting it. Mentally. Many of us share your feelings

White buffalo

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Stefan
August 29, 2016 at 1:16 PM

I share the heightened sensitivity for foreign energies with you. Fortunately it is also easier to dissolve them. I was bothered with what I consider as psychic attacks the last days more than usual. This led me to give up most of the resistance against foreign energy and just be with it (which includes letting it into my body). So the attacks lost some severity.

I also was able to largely let go of the division in positive and negative energy. I just see every energy as some more or less distorted version of the truth, but still truth. Like light shining through muddy glass. In this way distorted energy doesn’t bother me so much anymore, but it is still annoying, especially because I am not able to avoid some people who are loading me with it (currently).

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White buffalo
August 29, 2016 at 5:37 PM

Stefan,

The Host said that some of us would be unable to avoid all of the negativity
In our lives. This is because we are all operating usually at some point in our day
with integration of other people. So we have to do just like traveler said,
” hang on “.

For those of us like you and I that had no idea we could even make it this far, it is a day to day mind game to hang on. Many of us are with you. Remember,
” Patience of the saints ” ? Still applies.

Bill

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Rinda
August 29, 2016 at 5:18 PM

Traveler,

So, this past week I read the book “Three Waves of Volunteers and the New Earth” By Dolores Cannon. Wow did it open my eyes in several ways and made me realize how much I love such surprises! Reading it I felt like I was ‘catching up to speed’ on all things Earth related in the broad spectrum of everyone and their jobs and just how vast this whole project really is. How every being here for this process is awakening in their own time and we are all finding that our jobs have always been here all along and that we already knew what these jobs were and how we are truly only remembering, not learning. These ‘jobs’ were what we agreed upon before we came here and I have no doubt everyone here can attest to the fact that they ended up being harder than we could have possibly imagined at the time we agreed to them. I did get a glimpse of understanding just how many civilizations are involved in this process that are NOT of the OP yet working together for the highest good of every single person and the planet. Now I’m sure its much deeper and broader than I can still imagine but for the moment that is all I can handle.

One of the most powerful things that came about because of this book is the deep and abiding clarity of understanding that we are not alone. Either in our OP project, or in any other way. This book solidified my deep need to not feel like I am missing home. Which is such a prevalent feeling for so many on planet (because so many of us are not from ‘here’) that I think it has its own releasing process… just like say anger or greed or abuse and the like that we have been experiencing in some way in order to release our whole lives. Once we experience these hard emotions and are able to release them, we are paving the path for others to follow suit just by being ourselves. That is such a neat concept! I have felt like I was missing home my entire life. I no longer feel like there is a need for that feeling. It has completely dissipated for me. Just one step deeper than it was before. It is so peaceful for me to be able to put that to rest (at least for now, we all know how these things come back for even deeper clearing). It is in the understanding and the knowing that we knew we were needed, I (we) did volunteer for this and there is no doubt in my mind that we will fulfill our mission to its natural ending that has given me this new peace I have not previously experienced. We will be in Terra before you know it and there will be so much to experience there.

Just reading this book helped release the fear I have had about my family for so long that no matter where my family ends up (with me or not) they are OK. For me, THAT was the biggest and most helpful part of the whole book. I know I’ve posted several times about how hard this was for me and I found the answer that was never actually hiding in the first place. Funny how that works.

As sickening as things might be and as much as they are getting worse it only further reminds me how this is providing the proof that we have been waiting for that things will soon conclude here in this dimension. This is our way of knowing we are on the right track and knowing we really have been doing it the ‘right’ way all along! Yin & Yang here yet again. The more light/love we bring in, the more darkness/negativity the planet and her beings release in response. It kinda reminds me of what it feels like when you know someone will accept you for all that you are, no matter how ‘badly’ you behave. There is a release there that I have seen in many children that this situation reminds me of. They have to get that energy out somehow and if an understanding adult will allow this, in a safe manner, the child can have a lot of healing. This goes for nearly anyone though I have seen this the strongest with children.

This week I have experienced much as you have. I actually unsubscribed all my outside news feeds except for Collective Evolution because they do not focus on negatives as much even though I do not agree with everything they post, but that is par for the course. I do not subscribe to anything but my small smattering of my favorite sites. Which leaves my personal email account with about ten emails a day. The least amount I have ever had. I couldn’t handle the energy at zerohedge.com, too overwhelming for me.

I too can feel just how quickly my inner world is shifting from moment to moment. It is more fluid than it ever has and continues to be each day. Some how I have had the chance to experience this throughout my day, as busy as I am.

One thing that is similar yet with its own differences is how unreal everything around me feels. I am in town and running all over the place quite a bit during most weeks. This typically plays a balance between running weeks and ‘relaxing’ weeks where I do not go off my property. I have noticed that I notice nothing but what I am currently doing in each moment when I am out. If this means needing to watch for traffic, I watch, if this means watching in the store for what I need, I do so. For the biggest majority, I do not even notice anyone else or anything around me other than what is pertinent. It’s as if it does not exist for me.

If September goes as fast and the last three months then I will still be in August shaking my head lol

I apologize if I over step boundaries by using “we” so profusely here. From all the comments/posts I felt like it was appropriate.

Love,
Rinda

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White buffalo
August 29, 2016 at 6:14 PM

Rinda,

The fact that we are not alone only carries so much value because although we are not alone, no one has the athority to enter end in our lessons and the only pain experienced is in the lessons. But iI is encredibly accurate that we are never alone.

Without supporting information everyone like us would have to wonder, ” Who and why would someone come here on purpose ” ? I mean the universe is big there has to be some where with some sanity. I mean I process a lot of information and the vast majority of it is totally supportive planetary and human domain self destruction.

If we had bought the wrong ticket for lifetime movie to watch that would be bad enough, but we volunteered to active participants in final phase of a self destructing planet.

” We ” does seem appropriate here for the most part. This part of we can relate to almost all of your post especially the detached feeling and the comfort of reading about a plan that includes all of our loved ones. That had to be a huge relief.

It’s like it feels so comfortable to just stay in the moment. I almost have to strain to project my self backwards or forwards.

It is also my understanding that all of our loved ones, although some may go other directions, they will not be traveling alone. It is my understanding that everyone will get an astral projection of us just like those going into the astral plain after they leave their costume or get relocated via portal. It is my understanding that the separation fear will cease after it’s over. Although some of us will still have our costumes every one will have an astral projection of us to communicate with. This is just what I have put together over the years from various sources that could have included some of Delores Cannon’s work.
Have no way of knowing if it’s true but it is possible.

Haven’t read Delores book but probably will. Sounds like it was written for us.

White buffalo

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Traveler
August 29, 2016 at 6:28 PM

Bill, in my opinion, Delores’ book was NOT written for us. Her three waves are not our three waves at all, and she only considers TWO alternative outcomes because she adopted someone else’s vision that only had two possible planets. I think the value for Rinda was in recognizing that those whom she worried about and didn’t seem like they were going to Terra would still be okay, because there were other futures that they would be part of (or at least that’s how I interpreted what she wrote).

Just my two cents’ worth.

Traveler

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White buffalo
August 29, 2016 at 9:56 PM

Traveler,

I consider everything you broadcast worth way more than two cents. You have corrected me, to my advantage, more times than I can remember. Any time you see me confused or ungrounded I gain from your voice. There is a lot of material out there that is close to the OT story and you taught me this. So your concern is appreciated. Please continue to do as such. Your intuitiveness and overall thought level is appreciated here whether I benefitted from it or not.

I haven’t read Delores’s 3 wave book but have noted from Rinda of its similarities and differences with our journey so obviously, out side of the Host messages, APPROACH WITH CAUTION . Because the Host have already told us our loved ones will be looked after where ever they are going Delores’s work just kinda matches our messages on that one detail. As you have stated before, careful careful .

Some of the details that we find, if they were not specifically addressed by the Host, if it sounds and feels true it may very well be true. But because the Host would have mentioned it if were vital, what we conclude in our individual search for knowledge concerning our beliefs on the various aspects of our journey probably don’t matter any way in reference to our outcome . Nor did the Host say everything orthodox was wrong. So it is best to walk through life instead of run.

The Host told us long ago that it doesn’t matter what you know or believe that matters, only what’s in your heart and if you were destined for Terra. A human is either ready now for the lifting or will be transformed into ” ready ” by the final part of the journey. Our beliefs of the details are basically toys for thought you might say.

Only after you are humbled do you enter the kingdom of heaven. There will now be a massive number of people pushed into humbleness by these events .
Like never before in history.

There is not a force or knowledge source that can comfort an informed mother or father to much right now because of the highly unusual position we find our selves in. None of us ever dreamed we would even be at this junction ever in our life. No good options. Only options. The bond between some people and their related loved ones is massive and by no means a minor detail right now to us. But while we are seeking knowledge on this important traveling detail concerning who we will be going with it is important that we seek the enlightenment from knowledgable sources so as not to be disappointed later. So your advice is well received.

Because everybody on earth is somebody’s loved one you quickly realize how complex life is here and the exits and just let the creator handle it. The complexity of life is so vast it is mentally draining to ponder it so I yield to the creation itself to unfold as needed.

White buffalo

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Rinda
August 29, 2016 at 7:38 PM

White Buffalo,

Several things that really made this book stand out for me.

One, there is so much more to the universe than I currently had the awareness of. Which my mind knew but seeing another view with so many correlating view points, in their own way (my mind puts things together in interesting ways), made it real for me. I love to expand my thinking even if certain things were not written for us (which I TOTALLY agree with Traveler about this book) there is still certain value for those that are lead to reading or interacting with them or what ever situation may be created because of such.

Two, and most important in my book does go back to the family thing. I have been desperately searching for where exactly my family may go if they don’t go to Terra and HOW can I deal with my feeling of ‘leaving’ them behind. Well, since there is no separation, that can never happen anyways, but I think this book really gave me an understanding of how important it is to let go of what ever fears I have around this because in reality, they will be cared for, in which ever way is appropriate for them. At the very least there was enough of a perspective shift to put it in the proper perspective. As I’ve written before, this has been my greatest and deepest fear. I feel like I needed such a radically different perspective to really drive home the fact that they will be OK.

I have never read anything like Dolores Cannon, it was a good read and something worth reading for the deep value I received from it. It also brought me back to myself just that much more. I am looking less and less towards the outside to find my internal answers. This, like every other process right now is important to me.

Thank you for your input towards this, it is appreciated : )

Love,
Rinda

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White buffalo
August 30, 2016 at 8:18 AM

Rinda,

Thank you for reading the book and sharing your thoughts. I have noticed that you and I are mainly focused on our loved ones as we should be. When grounded people bring others into this world and then find out later this age we are in is ending it creates a massive phycological problem by its own right. Ungrounded and uninformed you would simply party until the sky fell. Informed is what generates all of our worries until we find more information on this situation that helps alleviate the very real concerns we have.

It sounds like the book does that about this traveling. Because it covers our only real concern in this whole venture it is well received I’m sure. Everything else is conjecture .

Because of travelers encredible extensive experiences in this exact arena I have always passed web sites and informers through her. The main reason I do this is because I know I do not possess the core intuitiveness that you and her have but I have the wisdom to lean on her for some guidance.

I am glad to be traveling with you during these closing hours and thank you again for your efforts to comfort.

White buffalo

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Marc Perel
August 30, 2016 at 8:48 AM

This post is incredibly insightful, thank you.

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Marissa
August 30, 2016 at 6:19 PM

Traveler,

right on in regard to the change in perspective 🙂 It is the only thing that matters as far as experience is concerned.

Rinda, I trained with Dolores when I became practitioner of her brand of life regression therapy. The thing about her books is to open your mind to possibilities and feel through any resonances. Toward the end of the series I have to admit that the novelty wore off.

Love Marissa

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White buffalo
August 31, 2016 at 8:19 AM

Marissa,

Good morning.

When you stated the novelty wore off does that mean you realized that there may be other views of soul journeys that were better for learning ? And did you come accross sources that were more appropriate for learning than Delores’s work ?

Bill

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Rinda
August 31, 2016 at 11:41 AM

Marissa,

Thank you! Exactly what I was trying to say in not as many words. I have no interest in reading any of her other books. This was enough and I can only imagine that I needed to read it for what value I did get out of it.

Love,
Rinda

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Rinda
August 31, 2016 at 11:49 AM

So, Interesting night last night. Suddenly had feeling that MUST go to bed at nine pm. There was not getting out of it, I was falling asleep before I hit my pillow. I was awaken in the middle of the night by one of the children and I felt so drugged. Yet I awoke early and felt perfectly fine! This is not the first time this has happened. It is the first in several years though.

Also, I apologize in advance if my typing is off. I have been having huge gaps between what I actually type and what I thought I typed. Even looking back in my typing, it it hard for me to correct all the time. I just don’t see how it is off. Traveler, if you can’t post something feel free not too at any point. Hopefully this will self correct soon. It is quite the annoyance.

Love,
Rinda

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Daniel Novotny
August 31, 2016 at 3:07 PM

Rinda, I also had an experience last night: as I was lying in my bed, a feeling of “fear of death” came to me. First I was shocked and then I realized I am in resistance, so I released the resistance and said to the unknown “something”: “OK, go ahead and kill me” – after a while, there was a sensation of bliss and relief. I also felt more free. When those unpleasant feelings come again, I know what to do.

Love,

Daniel

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Marissa
August 31, 2016 at 4:58 PM

Bill,

yes to both; I don’t think it would be appropriate to discuss here further but if you want to email me we can discuss in that format.

Love Marissa

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Marissa
September 1, 2016 at 4:31 PM

There is some really strange restless energy developing today; I am totally out of sorts which is very rare for me. The animals are off the wall.

Marissa

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Traveler
September 1, 2016 at 4:41 PM

Marissa, perhaps it has something to do with what the Hosts are talking about in this new Message, along the lines of “something dreadful this way comes.” Just a thought. It sure is nice to have a place to gather with other people of like mind.

The number of earthquakes is unusually high today, even though it’s at the time of a new moon (which causes earth tides and sets off faults that are “ripe” to go). There was a 7.1 off the North Island of New Zealand, and lots of quakes in the 5+ range all over the world.

Love,
Traveler

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paul
September 1, 2016 at 5:55 PM

Yes the latest message from the HOH is very sobering.

I for one have felt a little off the last couple of days and something within me felt an uneasiness that something of major significance is soon pending. I have not really had this kind of feeling in the past, at least not that I can remember.

Love, peace and happiness to all fellow traveler’s.

paul joseph

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Linda
September 1, 2016 at 9:31 PM

I agree with that Traveler, a good place to gather with people who have at least an inkling of what time we live in. We are blessed.

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Rinda
September 1, 2016 at 6:07 PM

Marissa,

I was going to post the same this morning and then I got busy doing other things in my day. I just sat down and cried earlier for no real reason I could understand. My animals were comforting me and that was really wonderful.

You are not alone Marissa : )

Love,
Rinda

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Storm
September 1, 2016 at 5:57 PM

I’ll put it here for now, seems appropriate enough.

At what would be in USA early night of the 28th of August 2016 I have finally received through my “private inner channel” an answer/update to the question that can be formulated basically as “What is the longest actual number of days/24-hr cycles of linear time are there for me still to wait until my life here may finally become unstuck and change?”.

The answer came in English (that was unusual, but still): “twelve”. So this puts me/us around “no later than” 9th of September 2016.

I just want to point out that info received through this “source” was never ever definitely correct before, but the same goes for everything/everyone else “out there” (or Internet). At that point I had no better, so here it is.

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Traveler
September 1, 2016 at 8:17 PM

Storm, I would first say that it is very difficult to get a clear and correct answer if one has any personal attachment to what might be said. Second, I don’t place any weight on dates, but I do find it interesting that your “no later than” date of September 9, 2016 is the ninth day of the ninth month in a “nine” year (2+0+1+6=9). Together that adds up to 27, which is also a 9 (9+9+9=27, 2+7=9). None is the number of completion of a cycle. Twelve is the number of fulfillment of a given effort. We shall see what, if anything, the answer you got comes to mean, but the theme of completion certainly fits with what the Hosts said in their Message today.

I am still taking one day, one moment at a time, and that’s the only way I can experience peace and relative comfort during what has been a long and often difficult journey.

September 9 is Friday of next week, so we don’t have very long to wait to see what comes by then, but I also am mindful that this is a process and we just don’t know how it will unfold until it does.

Love,
Traveler

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Storm
September 10, 2016 at 7:04 AM

So this information I received was incorrect, as usual. That much I suspected. The same goes for Traveler’s contact guy who said that “dates still hold”. Or something again shifted “unexpectedly” at the last “moment” towards mooaar delays.
I’m so tired of this…

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Traveler
September 10, 2016 at 8:11 AM

Storm, I was very skeptical of your dates and the ones that man told me about. I have been burned on dates to the point where I simply refuse to engage with them anymore. I keep an open mind, but am most comfortable when I remain totally rooted in the present and dealing squarely with what the present offers in each moment. The tasks vary, but my trust in the process does not. I know that my husband and I end up on Terra. How we get there is just not important to me anymore. I prefer to be comfortable along the way, but if not, I’ll deal with it when I have to deal with it.

I received a personal private message from the Hosts on September 8. It was short and most of it was directed toward my husband and me. They did say that “When it is time for things to radically change, we will alert you and give you information that you can give to others. … more information will be forthcoming when it is time for that to happen.”

In the meantime, I continue to glance at outer news and continue to be increasingly repelled by it. It is becoming a litany of sameness, lots of verbiage, a continuing trend downward, and nothing worth noting along the way other than the general trend downward. When I look at clips of the people gathering at political rallies and look into their eyes, no one is home in there. I am looking at people in a trance, walking zombies for the most part, seemingly incapable of thinking for themselves and waiting for someone to provide their answers for them.

The Hosts have said for us to get our news from within. They have said that no one — including them — knows with certainty what will happen, and tell us repeatedly to remain detached from the drama. I think a lot of your discomfort originates within you, by your having repeated expectations that aren’t met and not being happy with the conditions of your life as it is. I personally do much better when I appreciate all the little gifts of each day. I am so much better off than so many people in the world, and for that and the peace I am able to attain, I am grateful. I am not a sugary, “power of positive thinking” person whatsoever, but I do find that releasing resistance at all times is the path to inner peace, and it feels so good when I stop trying to hang on and keep going. Letting go IS indeed, “the great loss that gains all.”

When you ask the question of “when” or “how long?” you are setting yourself up for yet another disappointment. When you can let go of asking those questions, accept your life as it unfolds and find peace in doing so, the journey will answer your questions AS you make the journey.

To me, these are the lessons inherent in asking the questions, getting some answers, and then ending up back where one started — not knowing the when or how long and having to deal with that as the fact of their existence. For all practical purposes, the journey never ends. We go on, although perhaps in different forms. Your relief is in YOUR hands. Release resistance, remain rooted in the present, take care of what needs to be taken care of, and watch the show from the sidelines.

Love,
Traveler

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Storm
September 10, 2016 at 8:32 AM

Traveler it sounds good in theory but hard in application when one is being psychically drained, interfered and even attacked on literally daily basis from “people” closest to him/her beginning right from one’s birth. I developed thick skin but only so much I can battle and withstand, especially when I’m so confused that I can’t clearly see what this “battle” is for. Everyone has his limits, especially being in physical.
I’ll just say it looks like I’ve come a hair thin to give up. The only problem is I don’t even know what “give up” constitutes in my case.

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Traveler
September 10, 2016 at 3:12 PM

Storm,

I have experienced traumas since I was a fetus in my birth mother’s womb. It cost me my health — mental, physical, and emotional — and I had many imbalances to correct, which I have diligently worked on since my mid-20s until now. Is there no way you can physically remove yourself from those whom you say are having such a negative impact on you at this time? We can’t re-write our history, but we can decide what we want to do with the rest of our life, beginning now. As my teacher in my therapy class put it, “It is what it is. Now what?” It was a stunning thing for me to realize that, no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t undo what had happened. All I could do was move on and beyond it.

I got help in ways that helped, but a lot fell on me to take charge of. I don’t participate in interactions that are not harmonious if I can avoid them. I won’t engage with my husband in disharmonious ways and as soon as I become aware that we are “in it” again, I say “Stop!” and withdraw until peace is restored.

“Giving up” might be the best thing you could do for yourself, if it means giving up trying to hang on in a situation that simply doesn’t work for you. Letting go is very liberating, although one has to shift away from having expectations and move into being guided from within, in each moment that presents. No one is coming to rescue you. I know from your posts that you have a very clear eye about what is wrong with the outer world. I also see what you see, and I recognize that there is nothing I can do or say that will change the course of those events that are playing out, so I let go of engaging with them and find peace and enjoyment right where I am.

I have lived in disharmonious environments in the past and actually was under psychic and physical attack at times. I faced down my attackers, lost my fear of them, and moved on. That is long in the past. You have options, some of which might be more attractive than others. Everything has consequences. Doing something has consequences. NOT doing something has consequences. No one is exempt from doing the inner work and taking personal responsibility for their response to what shows up in their life. Even in the midst of the horrors of a concentration camp, Viktor Frankl (Man’s Search for Meaning) found a way of transcending his environment and discovered ways of finding meaning that have inspired uncountable others in the decades since then.

Instead of reinforcing your misery, withdraw to give yourself distance and perspective, and create something else for yourself. It could be something as simple as going to a forest nearby and letting the quiet bring you internal quiet. Bring a notebook and pen and write down your feelings, thoughts and ideas. You are not a victim. Get that. You are not a victim. Instead of continuing to battle and trying to change the others around you, withdraw from the battle, move out and move on. If you give up anything, give up the struggle you are putting yourself through.

I am holding a space for you to find inner peace. Nothing else matters except that.

Love,
Traveler

White buffalo
September 1, 2016 at 6:03 PM

Traveler,

It’s not just the fault lines that are coming completely unhinged. After years of calm huricane activity, look at what’s happening now in the Gulf of Mexico and look at what is already forming off of the west African coast. There is now a super highway of air flow that is picking up the storms as they head west and this highway of air flow is steering the storms as they gain strength straight toward the Gulf of Mexico and our east coast.

There was one bolt of lightning killed 316 reindeer in one second. Never before event. The rain event that that flooded us and the rain event that just flooded the south half of LA are now being referred to as rain bombs because of the massive density of water volume per cubic foot of air that falls. Thus humanity gets its first ever instafloods.

All of this was being held back for humanity. But that is ending.

Breath deeply and know we are one.

Why is the anthem off ?

Bill

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Traveler
September 1, 2016 at 6:20 PM

Bill, When I uploaded the OT site again, apparently the anthem file didn’t make it to the server. It’s there now. Thank you for callling this to my attention.

Traveler

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White buffalo
September 1, 2016 at 9:02 PM

Rinda,

Sometimes I am unable to say what I am wanting to say with this keyboard so if you don’t understand something that I convey, don’t assume it’s you. I can relate to your mental processing glitches. That seems to me would be normal during density adjustments.

What I was trying to say the other day about separation was, this is the first time in millions of years where everybody is going to be on the same side of the veil, so separation of any kind will not be possible . Every one will either be 4D, 5D or astral 3D. All accessible to each other.

So in this upcoming stage of the process that the Host are referring to, know that any separation between us and our loved ones has to be temporary because of where we are in the earth age. Normally you would have to wait till you died of old age to rejoin a loved one that went before you. Also know that any and everyone that gets to go home before the pole shift is winner. Taking your costume with you is strictly optional and was part of a soul’s script to take it.

Just my understanding . Hope it is useful.

Bill

Temporary separations where a loved one goes to the other side of the veil and leaves one of us here, that type of separation has been a normal part of the reincarnation all loop from the get go. The only way to avoid that type of separation would be for everybody to go home at one. But that to is ending.

When the time lines are all through and complete and calmness is upon the water, everyone will be on the same side of the veil. Everyone we ever knew.

Bill

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Traveler
September 2, 2016 at 8:27 AM

Bill,

I don’t think that’s an accurate assessment. The timelines will separate and not be accessible to one another. There will be people who continue in 3D on their timeline, although the greatest number will be on the astral 3D plane. For those who express at the higher Ds and regain the state of full connection, they will be able to access their full spectrum of expression, through all of the Ds they express at, but will probably express at a particular level more commonly at any given time.

I do not know how our costume will be transformed. I just expect that it will.

I understand that you want to offer comfort to Rinda and anyone else who might have anxiety about being separated from anyone they care about. However, Rinda already stated that she found the answer she was looking for in Dolores Cannon’s book and your offerings are simply not correct, as far as I know. Perhaps you could stop a moment and allow everyone to find their own answers for themselves, ask questions if they want to know something, and stop feeling like you have to respond to every post that is made here. Even though you have read a great deal and thought about these things a great deal, you really don’t know much more than any of the rest of us who are still veiled.

You don’t see correctly yet, but you will. Also, remember the STO maxim: Service that is not asked for is not service.

Love,
Traveler

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White buffalo
September 2, 2016 at 5:12 PM

Traveler,

I thought the whole reason Rinda shared it was to possibly comfort others here. I was only stating my view as I saw it on this small subject. I never intended for it to be anyone else’s’ truth. It was offered as my truth only because it seemed like it was one of my truths that would comfort.

You are correct. My desire to help over road the lesson that you stated. Did not mean to speak for anyone else.

I received and took your advise as your truth and processed it as such. Thank you for it.

You are correct about the dimensional accessibility . I was referring to the period after all of the time lines ended . So it just seemed like it would be a short period. The Host referred to it as a time of rest for every soul. It was my understanding that no thing would be manifest during that period. I assumed they meant 3D costumes. Just a thought.

Love,

White buffalo

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Traveler
September 2, 2016 at 6:17 PM

White Buffalo,

All of the timelines continue, but separately from one another. When the 12 stargates were opened in 2011, they furnished the portals through which of the timelines would connect with their exit points via their respective wormholes. I suggest you re-read the October 3, 2011 Update for more on this subject.

The Hosts referred to the PLANET lying fallow and resting, not people. The Hosts also talk about the Null Point. You might want to re-read “The Harvesting of Souls” to refresh your memory on that. Here is the part I find relevant to this discussion:

The Creation is about to be entirely re-created. All the foci of consciousness will be “blinked off” for an immeasurable “moment.” (Time will also cease, as there will be no material reality in that moment and time is a function of material reality; it is the “time” portion of space/time.) On the other side of the “blink,” the “players” in the drama of Creation will find themselves standing on other “spots” on the “stage.” It will be like closing your eyes and then reopening them, only to find that the scene you are looking at has changed drastically.

What this means is that all of the stuff of prediction is rendered null and void. All of the human prophets and seers have seen through the perspective of the present reality. There is no one that is or was in a physical body that can accurately predict what is about to happen or what one will experience after that “blink” has occurred. Each and every Oversoul will be affected in ways that even the Oversouls cannot anticipate. Their only task is to prepare themselves for the event by completing all of their “lives,” harvesting all but one of the souls back into the Oversoul, and retaining one portion of exteriorized consciousness with which to “seed” the new Creation.

There will be many fewer players on the “stage” when the new drama unfolds. You who are reading this message will be among those who are there to experience it, but you will be much changed from your present form and identity. You are being prepared by your Oversoul and overseen by your soul for this event. We are doing our best to prepare you so that you will not be overwhelmed by the magnitude of what is happening and by the new sensations and awarenesses that have begun to enter your consciousness.

Anyway, according to the man who originally told me about the coming event, the dates are holding firm, so we should have an interesting time between Sunday and Tuesday.

I think you have read and absorbed so much material from so many sources, you are getting them somewhat mixed up in your mind. Also, I suggest that you do more active listening and less active talking until you have listened first. Rinda made it clear on her first post about the Cannon book that she had gotten what she was looking for. Why wasn’t that enough for you? Let me also add that I am very familiar with the “need to be needed” tendency, as I had it to a great degree myself, as a way of filling a void in my inability to find healthier ways of relating to other people at the time.

Now that you have found yourself in a place where you aren’t going to get pushed out for thinking and feeling differently than those around you, perhaps you can back off a bit and become a more relaxed member of a small community, rather than feeling you are responsible for “helping” everyone else here. If a need is expressed, by all means respond to that when asked and as it feels appropriate. However, it is my experience here that you have not respected other people’s boundaries and have behaved a little like this was your “bully pulpit,” and that this is YOUR blog.

I allowed you to ventilate for a while because I recognized you had a lot of stuff pent up that you had never had a place to express, but now I would like you to be more aware of others as people who aren’t as needy as you seem to need/want them to be. You have assumed that there is a problem that you need to solve and have plunged in with copious offerings. However, now I think it’s time you became more sensitive to those you are speaking to. Like I said, service not asked for is not service. I would like to see you act more like a sovereign being among sovereign beings and trust us and the process more.

Just my two cents’ worth this evening. Bigger things await, if what the Hosts said is true.

Love to you and yours,
Traveler

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Rinda
September 2, 2016 at 8:50 AM

Figured I’d share this since when I didn’t share yesterday and Marissa was feeling very similar and it sounds like we could all benefit a little from realizing we are going through much that is quite similar.

Another interesting morning here. Hubby, and three of our seven children woke up feeling completely excessively groggy, almost like trying to rip ourselves back to the reality here and we were having a rough time of convincing our bodies to do so this morning. I don’t know about the kids but hubby and I both felt like we had been dragged through the ringer, kicked around a little and tossed back in bed lol. It was a bit of a rough start today, to say the least!

I pray everyone here had a much better morning.

Love,
Rinda

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Marissa
September 2, 2016 at 2:32 PM

Rinda,

whatever the energy wave was I think it’s starting to pass; after a horrible night I am starting to feel much calmer and I hope you are too. i sometimes think these matrix energetic waves are analogous to disturbances in the “Force.” 🙂

Love Marissa

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Rinda
September 2, 2016 at 4:28 PM

Marissa,

It has nearly passed for me too. Hopefully for good. Although I don’t expect that to be the case at all. Maybe the next wave will be a little easier since I think we will both be more expectant of it.

Love,
Rinda

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Rinda
September 2, 2016 at 4:37 PM

I love your analogy too!

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Rinda
September 2, 2016 at 4:40 PM

Traveler,
Can you possibly delete my last name? I’m on my phone which is junk and chrome auto filled. Grr.

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Traveler
September 2, 2016 at 5:02 PM

Done.

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John V milewski
September 2, 2016 at 4:55 PM

This energy wave is doing some thing to my dream state that coming the same as my waking state Iat time in the am i ma not sure weather I am deraming or awake

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Rinda
September 3, 2016 at 9:16 AM

Nothing to report this morning in terms of having a bad night. Slept well and woke up to as normal a morning as I will probably have for the rest of our time here.

I wish everyone the same : )

I felt the need to share a dream from a time before I knew of OT. The thought to share this had occurred to me several weeks ago but I then was distracted and actually forgot. The thought came back to me last night with more urgency and I don’t know why, but here it is:

I was in a smallish house and it seemed to be noteworthy for me to notice that it was messy at the time. I had this feeling all of a sudden that there were some type of ships that were going house to house and taking those that wanted to go with them. It didn’t feel anything like a threat. I don’t remember being excited about it either, it just was what it was. I do not remember there being anyone else with me at the time. I felt this ship coming down the block where I lived in this dream which had many houses on it, stopping at those various houses for passengers. When it was over my home this being appeared in my kitchen that scared the living crap out of me and I ran though the house, already knowing I couldn’t escape it. It of course followed me to several rooms until I quit being afraid and I finally turned to look at it. I realized that my fear had colored my perception so much that I didn’t recognize that this being was my family. I was so excited at this point! This was part of my family and I loved him.. it may have been a her, not positive. I went up to the ship with it and we must have been transported to another ship.

When I was in my home on earth, this being appeared to be almost formless. Taking the rough shape of a tall, white figure. Aboard the ship though, they all appeared to be nearly as solid as you and I appear now. The room I was in was a deep red and very comforting for me. This ship, with out a single doubt in my mind, even during the dream itself, of which I was ‘awake’ in, was my home. I was standing in front of a woman in the highest ‘ranks’ of this particular ship. She was sitting at a very large desk and the desk was situated just between a very large, oval shaped window to my right and left. Out of the windows I could see we were in space at this time. The communication was telepathy and I didn’t want to hear any of it. Being there brought back a lot of comforting memories and I didn’t want to leave. But once I was at that ‘level’ I knew instinctively that I had came to earth of my own accord and had my own job to do. I had enough of the imprint of the Earth journey that I just didn’t want to go back, knowing full well at the same time that I was of course going to go back. I cried. Harder than I had ever cried and I begged to be able to stay and these wonderful beings did offer for me to stay. Once I was ok again I was able to get past my feeling upset and realize that I (along with everyone else on the planet at the time) was very needed on Earth and that there was most certainly a plan for all of us to fulfill. Once I had made the choice to come back I was back in my bed sleeping and I awoke in the morning with my pillow soaked. This dream caused a lot of distress/comfort for me for a long time. It has taken me years and years to get to the point that I understand and am content with the experience I had and now it is a source of comfort.

While I am far enough along in my journey not to have that ache of missing home any longer. I do suspect this has a lot to do with knowing that all of this will be over soon enough and that there is not but a blink left to being reunited with my family and completing this journey we all started so very very long ago. Having all of you here at this time is just as much proof of this to me as anything my little heart could ask for. You all mean so much to me, just because you are here, right now, at this time. I know not everyone posts and while I am fine with this I would like to say that even if you never post you are still appreciated. Every single person is so valuable and none over the other not one of us could do any of this without the other. It is our team effort that will pull this off and bring us all to exactly where we have been going all along. It will be a wonderful culmination to find that this separation we experience was nothing but an illusion to start with.

All my love,
Rinda

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Traveler
September 3, 2016 at 9:17 PM

Rinda, thank you for sharing your dream with the rest of us. When I have seen the Hosts, they were very tall and white, so perhaps the being that appeared to you in that form was one of them in that setting. When my husband and I embrace, particularly at night just before we fall asleep, it brings strong memories of how we are “up there,” and it brings strong longings to be back there again, like that again. I can totally relate to your not wanting to come back down here. Hopefully, it will not be much longer before we can ALL go home and be together again. We ARE “family” and we are all in this together.

Love,
Traveler

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Storm
September 10, 2016 at 6:43 PM

Traveler, I’m unable to respond to your comment of [September 10, 2016 at 3:12 PM] in place, so I’ll write here.

I think there is no need for me to dump details of my personal circumstances in public blog and there is nothing really extraordinary about them anyway… I bet we ALL suffered one way or another from deformed way of life on this planet. Sometimes, sadly, in extreme ways.

First of all, thank you for honest, thoughtful, observant and compassionate response!

Second… By “giving up” I meant different thing altogether, not about the debilitating relationships I’m stuck with. Actually I gave up on these relationships and any attempts to change, influence or “prod” these persons years ago. While I can still occasionally “slip” here and there, from my side these relationships are already dead! I’m done with them from my side. Only technicalities remain. While the “other side” of course cannot still even conceive a possibility that I can one day just “disappear” from their life once and for all… Because I never belonged there to begin with.

But yes, I physically cannot move out. There is nowhere for me to go. Moreover I cannot leave this city because I was several times led to believe that I must be in this city when my services would be required. If they are still required that is. Even omitting almost blocking financial difficulties, when I “probed” some moving options 2 years ago I felt them as dead end at that time.

I think you are familiar with this feeling, it can be felt literally in your body. I remember Hosts talked about that in one of their messages. This sickening discomfort and feeling of tightening and “dead end road”. As opposed to perceiving liberating, perspective-broadening, spirit-uplifting way even if you know there are huge difficulties to overcome along this way. Two years ago options to put my energy into “Moving out Enterprise” felt like “not really necessary now because time is too short” thing. But there was plenty of time as it turns out…

Today, when I can not even FEEL this World anymore or have any attachments to any paces, events, perceptions or modes of thought and life practiced in it, putting huge amount of energy in “Moving out Enterprise” now, reengaging with this world for all intents and purposes feels like Total Insanity. To pull this off, and fix this once and for all, old-fashioned 3D-way, I basically should start all over again. In THIS World. Nor there is a felling/knowledge that I MUST do it now.

And at the same time I know that these relationships MUST end, and sooner the better, they are extremely unhealthy. And it is long overdue for them to end. Wrong people in my life should be replaced by right people. But I cannot do it by my own deliberations. Reality should provide a “door” for me to pass through. In the “past” it always provided such “doors”/turning points at correct timings. Now timing feels seriously off.

This brings me again to this “time dilation”/time loop concepts. I had plenty of “time” in last couple of years to think about all of this, feel into, analyze… And no matter how I approached the subject or when I did this, result was always the same. Time dilation, this “unnatural”, surprising even to Hosts, unfortunate unscripted interference is what scrambled MY script for this life and has thrown it in un-timed mess. And what I do is basically running around picking up pieces, and hoping (yes, hoping) that “reality will be fixed” and proper timing and course of my life will be restored. Right events and people would arrive. I even see this “broken timing” thing in other people’s lives.

I believe (and comfortable with) that these relationships were SCRIPTED in my life to END when Great Events arrive. And no matter what I may fantasize to do about them, I cannot “cheat” this fact. Am I wrong? Possibly! But I cannot really judge until all is concluded. And so I’m stuck.

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