June 5, 2016

Shopping for Shoes


For me, shopping for shoes begins with taking a look around at all of the possible options and then going through a process of elimination that ends up with choosing a pair that feels right to walk in. I find that my current process of shifting my identity has a lot in common with shopping for shoes, which is why I felt it was a good title for this article.

In shopping for shoes, it usually involves trying a few different pairs on, to see which one(s) feel best to me. I try walking on the hard-surfaced floor area in the store precisely because it doesn’t cushion my feet as I walk and any places where the shoe doesn’t conform to my foot become more evident.

Yesterday was a particularly chaotic day and it provided lots of opportunities to experiment with different energies and positions I could take in response to what was showing up to be dealt with. My husband and I each had our own challenges in this and when we got into disharmony, it provided even more opportunities to examine the causes of our discomfort.

In addition to the usual challenges of doing our weekly food shopping, I had gotten an invitation to interview for an editing job from a man I later discovered had been taken in by a slick scheme in which he took all of the risks and costs and the publisher merely capitalized on his book as a possible item in their catalog. In the publishing trade, this is called “vanity press,” precisely because the author is victimized by their own sense of importance as much as the publisher’s desire to maximize their profits and minimize their risk. There is nothing inherently evil about this. It is just another example of how our economic system is inherently predatory and promotes consumption at every turn.

I finished the interview for the job before going to bed last night and, as I was waking up this morning, it was there in my mind as unfinished business from yesterday. I could feel a current running through my body that was very unpleasant. It wasn’t painful. It just wasn’t comfortable. It was more like what it feels like when one hears the sound of metal grating on metal, such as when a key is cut at the local hardware store.

I noticed what that felt like (that was one pair of shoes that I was trying on), and then I switched my focus to the world I want to create, which is not built on predation and consumption. My body relaxed, expanded, and felt peaceful. THAT pair of shoes felt much better to me. The change of focus was within my ability to choose it.


I can sense and see that the level of chaotic energies is increasing in the outer world, and they can be very uncomfortable to engage with. I KNOW which pair of shoes I want to walk in. The challenge is to consciously choose them at every opportunity, instead of mindlessly getting hooked back into the existing paradigm. The chaotic energies and the areas in which they challenge us were eloquently identified in the latest communication from the Hathors, through Tom Kenyon:

“Depending upon your vibratory resonance you will be affected in unique ways by the escalation of chaotic events. Those of you sensitive to the ecosystem of this planet may be experiencing extreme duress as you witness the degradation of the ecosystem and the loss of many species of life.

Another Chaotic Node, in addition to the Chaotic Node of your ecosystem, is the stress of interpersonal communications. This is a very complex situation, and it is partly due to the shifts in magnetic fields upon your planet, making short-term memory and cognitive sequencing difficult during energetic shifts—and these energetic shifts are accelerating. Irrational behavior, desperation and feelings of utter hopelessness are on the rise. As the deterioration of both the ecosystem and interpersonal communications increase we anticipate even more cultural and social instability.

There is a growing sense among many that something is terribly wrong, and along with this is the feeling that there is no solution. In this instance we agree with something Albert Einstein once said, which is that the solution to a problem cannot be solved at the level of the problem.

From our perspective, the escalation of Chaotic Nodes is creating tidal waves of intense chaotic energies that many of you are finding difficult to contend with. Furthermore, your automatic reflexive ways of dealing with change are increasingly ineffective.

There is a fork in the road, so to speak, that you have entered both individually and collectively. One path from this fork will lead you into a type of madness and an inability to function in practical ways. For those who take this fork, escapism will be on the rise. Self-destruction both individually and collectively will also increase in this period.

Many of you who have an opportunity to transition out of third-dimensional reality into other dimensions will take it.

Without mincing words, to use one of your phrases, we would say you are entering one of the more difficult passages of planetary transformation.

At this fork in the road, one path leads to self-destruction, madness, despair and hopelessness while the other fork leads to a deeper connection with your interdimensional or spiritual nature. It is this fork in the road we wish to explore.

It is not an either/or proposition. Many of you who possess a transcendent and interdimensional or spiritual sense of yourself may find yourselves, from time-to-time, on the path to madness and self-destruction in spite of your self-knowledge.

This is because your 3-D reality is oscillating. And the rapid changes in your third-dimensional existence are accelerating at a faster rate than your biological organism might be capable of handling. The extreme stresses upon your biological nature must be dealt with if you wish to avoid the path to madness and self-destruction.

In its simplest terms the requirement to successfully make this passage through the escalation of Chaotic Nodes is deep authentic contact with your interdimensional or spiritual nature and the self-renewal that arises from such contact.

… many of you are time-stressed. You have too much to do in too little time because you are trying to hold the old world together as time accelerates. All we can say to you from our perspective is that holding the old world together is “mission impossible.” Letting go of the old world, and your attachment to how you think you need to be, is part of what is required to take the higher path.

… In the final analysis, your personal experience of the escalation of interlocking Chaotic Nodes will depend solely upon the vibratory resonance you have attained or failed to attain. The responsibility for this passage as an individualized being, embodied in time and space, is solely and completely your responsibility.”

My “shoe shopping” experiment has led me to the same conclusion. The path out of the madness involves choosing new shoes to walk in, shoes that are not based in my former ideas of how I thought I had to be in order to survive, but rather based in placing my focus on what I want to create and be part of now. And in coming to grasp that fully, I can relax my grip on the world that is dying and let it come apart, as it needs to.

Going all the way back to June 28, 1999, as I sat with fingers poised over the keyboard with the intention of creating a web site in which I would describe what I saw was wrong in the present world, the words of the Hosts were, “We suggest that, instead of focusing on the world that is dying, you offer a vision of hope that people can carry with them to sustain them in the days ahead.”

From the vision I had received in 1982, I knew exactly what was meant by “the days ahead,” and I resonated with that intent immediately. In that moment, the vision of Operation Terra was born, although I still did not know exactly how I would proceed with it. That was 17 years ago this month (it certainly seems much longer than that!) and the advice still rings true. This world IS dying, and the vision of hope that they gave us through the Messages that began to arrive two days later is still the one that brings me peace and comfort now.

That vision of hope is the pair of shoes I want to walk in and to leave that old world to die, because it is both supposed to do that and it’s time for it to do that. Wearing the old shoes of that world no longer works for me and only brings me back to an experience of self that is not congruent with that “deep authentic contact with your interdimensional or spiritual nature and the self-renewal that arises from such contact” that the Hathors describe. It is the true Self that Eckhart Tolle has distinguished from the ego (whose job is totally connected with our physical survival).

We can consciously choose to identify with that true Self and reside in its perspective or we can be hooked back into the realm of our ego and its experience of separation. I know which shoes I want to walk in. However, old habits still kick in and it takes a willingness to pass through that experience in order to discover its roots and move on past it, or at least it requires that from me. It’s the same for my husband, but I don’t think it will necessarily be the general case. Some of you who are reading this seem to have an easier time of detaching from the old world and moving into that other pair of shoes than I do.

For me it takes conscious effort at this time, but it is also clear that it is a skill that I can cultivate and develop until it becomes the new habit and doesn’t require as much effort to exercise or maintain. I also see my recent irritability and intolerance in a new light. They are the cues to tell me when I am engaging with the old world that no longer serves me, and a signal to take off the old shoes and walk in the new ones, which are now a better fit and the most comfortable to walk in. That they are now a better fit also tells me that I am closer to where I am going than I used to be.

Love to all,

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6 Comments on “Shopping for Shoes

June 5, 2016 at 12:01 PM

The transformation is on, is active, is part of everything on earth right now, and that includes inside of me, ego and spirit self included. I feel it. I would say I have walked in my new shoes towards more peace, joy, and love, disengaging from the chaotic predatory old world, for quite a while now. I feels good to trust, have faith in this possibility, of a world where all life is respected, all life is treated fairly, all life is able to live out its life without the predation and fear, the competition, greed, selfishness, that is truly rampant today. And to create that world now with every choice, every way I spend my energy, be it physical, emotional or mental. It feels good to be moving beyond that insane fearful world, physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. The shoes I am in feel like a better fit, the road I am walking is out of the madness. With each step these shoes feel so much better.

June 5, 2016 at 2:13 PM

Dear Traveler,

This made me laugh as I used to love amazing shoes for dressing up, except working in my yard…always bare foot. Now I do not own shoes. I wear boots if it is snowing or sandals the rest of the times I go out. Otherwise still bare foot. Hope you did not buy that shoe, cannot keep those tied.

On the subject of detachment, I learned how only after things detached from me. After my NDE in 1990, I came away with such a willingness to return to that peace that I tried all forms of learning enlightenment. Then ten years ago I was given a series of gifts to return to peace. My husband died suddenly, had to leave my home, my friends disappeared, my oldest daughter died after a year long illness, was no longer privileged to communicate with my first two grandchildren, then my dog of almost 20 years died. I learned so much about choice. I think we may somewhat not agree on this. I believe I helped plan my role here and that there is only Creators will. There are overall still thousands of choices we make every day. I had to learn to detach from my feelings of loss and choose peace in knowing it is the plan and it will present itself.

Just as the “Fork in the Road” description, it is a choice…but let’s say it is not. If there is no free will, then it is already decided. I am not so sure. I observe escalation of harmful behavior as examples given, but I also see examples of people becoming more conscious of others and their needs. Service to self vs service to others…duality. My willingness…Thy will be done….has turned into determination to speak my truth in both words and actions. I do not mean confrontational but quietly go about being myself and let others be who they are.

The OT Collective Works, I will always be grateful for. I have notes written on every page in every open space. Good advise long ago from the Hosts. As you state many times in the book and over the years, “you will know if the messages speak to you”. Many times I have visualized your description of Terra when I needed to center and it really helps. I understand your moving on from OT , but enjoy the references in the blog, I go back and read again. Your messages bring hope but also courage to address difficult experiences and topics for us all.

Namaste, Jennifer

June 5, 2016 at 3:23 PM


That was the only nice picture I had of a shoe in my collection of clip art. It has a nice esthetic feel to it, which is why I used it. I don’t have any shoes that look like that. Like you, I wear either boots or sandals and got rid of my last pair of “heels” years ago. I don’t even own a dress anymore.

Thank you for sharing all of that with us. When I first became aware of the Hosts, the first feature of theirs that I recognized was their wisdom. I later came to appreciate their sense of humor and “mirth” is definitely one of their characteristics. Whenever I have reason to return to the Messages, I am repeatedly struck anew by their prescience and how, no matter how much time has passed since the Message was received, it is at least as timely today, if not more so.

I just want to clarify that I have not “moved on” from OT; I have moved into a more direct relationship with it as fitting with my life plan and destination. When I was guided to take down the site and what was left of the forums, I fully expected to “leave” shortly after that because the time dilation was supposed to end around January 18 or so. I went through an adjustment during January and then saw that a new process had begun — what I have called the “finishing school” phase, in preparation for whatever comes next.

It has been an odd experience to be given so much advance information and still have to go through ALL of the steps called for in my journey. My script apparently calls for me to be both a scout who goes ahead and brings back news, and a passenger on the bus at the same time. In terms of choice, when I read the detailed anecdotes in Michael Newton’s first two books, I did not agree with Newtons’ assessment or interpretations of what his patients reported, but I did find a lot of value in what they actually said. I was particularly fascinated by their descriptions of how they came to choose what they would do in their next life. They were shown several different possible scenarios and had to pick one of them, in cooperation with those they were going to be with in that life. I got a distinct impression that there was a subtle bias in what they were shown so that they would be most likely to “choose” the lifetime that had already been chosen for them, but they were led to believe that they were doing the choosing. I also remember standing in that group that I called “the tall ones,” making plans for this life and how we would find each other again.

Well, here we are, and I do feel an impendingness today. It could be the heaviness of the air now that the weather has turned warmer and carries more moisture, but I think its more than that. There is a sense of storm clouds gathering at a distance and a kind of waiting for something to appear that is currently hidden from view, but I know it’s there. As I say so often, time will tell the truth of all things, so I try to stay over my feet and deal with what is presenting AS it presents. Nonetheless, I am picking up on something and it’s unsettling. It remains to be seen what it is, what it means, and how it will play out on the perceptual stage.

Nice to hear from you!


June 6, 2016 at 7:22 AM

I can so much relate to what you says. Yesterday was such a nasty day for me. I did hold on to one idea because I thought it was right. And it was like life was wresting it away from me. Life does not seem to “allow” anything between seperation conciousness and wholeness anymore, if I resist, it becomes very painful. And I see that my shadow wants to be loved and healed desperately, so that I can stop spinning around my personal problems. For me it also requires conscious effort, to stay whole, but it does not seem like life is asking for anything undoable. I look into the future with much confidence.

Thanks you so much for keeping posting!

June 6, 2016 at 7:52 AM


I really relate to your statement, “Life does not seem to ‘allow’ anything between separation consciousness and wholeness anymore.” That is what has been at the root of my irritability and intolerance. Anything that is the least bit “off” is very uncomfortable. I still get hooked back into the places I haven’t cleared, but I am slowly starting to feel that I can consciously choose my focus and choose which “shoes” I want to walk in. If I get triggered back into places where I am still wounded, it sometimes takes some effort to first become aware of what happened and then to choose to respond differently, but as you say, it’s doable. Not necessarily easy just yet, but doable. Thanks for sharing.


June 7, 2016 at 6:41 PM

Dear Traveler;
Thank you so much for your posts..
This last one rings such a bell for me too. I appreciate the metaphor “vision of hope is the pair of shoes I want to walk in”… It offers a comforting reminder & support for “these days” (*As all your messages/writings have done). “Cultivating” this rhythm of Hope is a task that I feel is most challenged in this creation now, more than ever. Having camaraderie acknowledging, contributes to the effort of Hope – in both personal realm as well as for wholeness. Thank you for your sharing & creativity
Dear “Hope” that this week is gentler for you & all.
Love, Maria


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