June 14, 2016

The Return

True to the prediction I had made when I was 10 years old, I finished college with a science degree and moved to the East Bay area of California. After working there for a year, I moved to San Franscisco and a year later I got a job in medical research in the University of San Francisco Medical Center. While I was there (1965-66), Life magazine put out an issue about how California set the precedents that the rest of the country followed. One of the articles was about some cutting edge research that Dr. Joe Kamiya was doing with biofeedback and his lab was at Langley Porter Neuropsychiatric Institute — right next door to the building where I was working! I called him up and suggested that I might be a good subject for his research (nothing like being in your mid-20s and feeling like anything was possible!).


Dr. Kamiya had begun his research by measuring the amount of alpha waves being produced by meditating Zen monks in monasteries in Japan. He found that the amount of alpha waves being produced directly correlated with the individual’s progress toward becoming a Zen master, and he wondered if people could be taught to achieve the same states through the use of biofeedback.

(Normal waking consciousness is associated with beta waves. Deep meditation produces more alpha brain waves. See this article for an overview of alpha brain waves.

The experiments I took part in were set up as follows: Electrodes were fastened to the scalp with paste (no needles for me!) and attached to an EEG recording mechanism that was set up outside of the darkened room where the subject sat in an armchair. The door to the room was kept closed and 60 trials of 60 seconds each were done. The subject was simply told to try to produce alpha waves at will. If they succeeded in doing so, a tone sounded while alpha was being produced. At the end of each 60-second trial, verbal feedback was given in the form of a number that represented how many seconds out of the 60 seconds they had produced alpha waves in their brain.

However, in explaining the procedure to me, Dr. Kamiya introduced bias by telling me that it was not possible to get 60 seconds out of 60 seconds, so I should just try to do the best I could.

In the first session, it took me a few minutes to find the place in my head that produced the alpha waves. It was located at the bottom of a cone-shaped area that pointed downward into my brain. (I later found out that it was the pineal gland, but didn’t know that at the time.) I imagined a lever in that location and mentally imagined that I was pressing down on the lever to produce the alpha waves. I could tell when I was successful because the tone would sound and then I would get the score for that trial.

Since I had been told it was impossible to get 60 out of 60, I mentally set a goal of 30 seconds for the first session. I hit that and stayed there for the rest of that session, and set a goal for 40 seconds for the second session, which I also achieved. After I had set the goal for 50 seconds and hit that for the third session, I began to wonder about where the “glass ceiling” really was.

Between the third and fourth sessions, a woman I had known in college came to visit San Francisco and I played tour guide for her and her husband. Dr. Kamiya was doing a workshop at Esalen Institute in Big Sur that weekend, so I decided to take my visitors down there to look around and possibly introduce them to Dr. Kamiya. We were walking around the extensive grounds when a man approached us, asking if he could be of help. I told him we were looking for Dr. Kamiya, and he proudly boasted that he (the man we were talking with) was Dr. Kamiya’s “star alpha subject.” I said, “Really? What was your highest score?” He puffed up and said, “55” (meaning 55 seconds out of 60).

“Really?” I said with pretended surprise, but in my mind I was thinking, “If that jackass can hit 55, I can go to 60,” so when I went into the lab the following week, I told Dr. Kamiya, “I’m going to blow up your machine.” (I later found out that the “jackass” was Michael Murphy, the founder of Esalen Institute, who was written extensively on what he believes is the human potential, but I think his ego was very much in charge on that particular day.)

It took until the fourth trial  in the fourth session for me to get the tone to stay on permanently, but once I hit 60 out of 60, I just stayed there. That’s when things began to change in very interesting ways. I detached from the effort of producing the alpha waves and was in an expanded state of consciousness from that point on. The first thing I noticed was the air, as it entered me and became “me,” and then as it left me and stopped being “me.” The next thing I noticed was that, where my hands were resting on the arms of the chair, the boundary between my hands and the arms of the chair had disappeared. I could not tell where the chair left off and I began, and vice versa.

As the hour wore on, I continued producing the alpha state of consciousness that Dr. Kamiya had said was impossible. My awareness continued to expand to fill the room, then go beyond the room, then fill the entire sky. After a while, I was no longer aware of where I was or who I was. I was in a state called Samadhi:


noun, Hinduism, Buddhism.

  1. the highest stage in meditation, in which a person experiences oneness with the universe.


When I left the lab, I remained in this state for three days. Everywhere I went, there were no strangers. I felt a familiarity with everyone I encountered and had no fear whatsoever. However, my untrained nervous system could not hold that state and the pendulum swung the other way.

I began to be paranoid and only was comfortable with people I had known for a long time or trusted a lot. I began having hallucinations, such as driving along the Oakland Bay Bridge and seeing bushes and trees springing up along the lane markers. I would be driving a winding mountain road in broad daylight but it was as if it was at night and I could only see ahead for the distance that would have been illuminated by the headlights of the car. This state lasted around two months, and when I told Dr. Kamiya about it, he said he had never seen anyone who could move into other realities the way I had done, and told me to never do any drugs stronger than marijuana because there was a real danger I would leave and not come back.

Later on, I was doing a literature search for scientific articles related to my job and found an article that described the aftermath of LSD ingestion. All of my symptoms were listed there, but I had not taken any drug at all. I had just manipulated my brain waves and it obviously had changed my brain chemistry in the same way that LSD did for others.

Shortly afterward, I went to a free lecture on Transcendental Meditation, partly because I was curious and partly because it was free. I did not understand anything the man was talking about, especially terms like meridians and nadis (I knew absolutely nothing about anything metaphysical at that time), but when he got around to describing Cosmic Consciousness and said that it’s “a state in which there are no strangers,” I felt like I had been hit over the head and knew that I had to “get me some of that,” so I signed up and paid for the first two initiations, but had to stop after 8 years of practice because I hit some kind of wall and it wasn’t doing anything more for me.

The reason I just put you through reading that long story is because of what I have been experiencing in brief glimpses during the past week or so. A very long time ago, I was told that “Mastery is the state of becoming large enough to be able to contain everything within you without judging or holding any of it outside of yourself or outside of love.” In the past week, I have had momentary experiences of that.

We were in the parking lot of a store, walking toward the building, when a very large piece of machinery kicked into action and rolled past us with a great deal of noise. Normally, I would have held my ears to block out the noise, but this time, the noise was inside of me—within the field I experienced as myself—and although I noticed it, it did not bother me at all. In a sense, it was part of “me,” and I felt continuous with it.

The second instance was when I was sitting in the bedroom that serves as my office and a tremendous thunderstorm came overhead, dropping enormous quantities of rain. I could only see out of the two windows of the room, but I felt totally connected with the rain, the sky, the storm, and at one with it, in a way that I have never experienced before. It was all part of “me,” and again, I felt no danger whatsoever.

The third time was when I was in the kitchen and saw a large black ant on the floor. We live in a woods, and do not allow ants in the house or we would be overrun by them. Any ant that comes in will signal its fellow ants by leaving a scent trail into the house, so we allow the ants to thrive outside of the house, but we kill any ants that come in the house so they won’t signal the others to come in also. THIS time, I had a moment where I looked at the ant and saw it in a way I had never seen before. I SENSED it as a living being and marveled at the way it looked at me and waved its antennae. It seemed like a miracle that something that small contained so much awareness and intelligence. I felt like it was a fellow being for a moment, and then the moment passed.

I returned to normal consciousness, and felt I had to kill it anyway, for all the reasons I just stated, but I felt terrible and killed it especially quickly so it wouldn’t suffer in any way. I apologized to the ant for killing it, and I found myself wishing for a world where I could live in harmony with all things of that world, where I could return to that oneness I have known and remain in that state permanently.

This is why I have called this article “The Return.” Fifty years ago, I had that brief experience of oneness with all things, and I have been seeking to return to that state ever since. I was not actively seeking that state on any of the three occasions I have described, but for those brief moments, I was there, in that state, without any effort on my part whatsoever.

I have wondered why I broke my front tooth at this late hour and ended up having to have four crowns put on this past week. However, when I look in the mirror, they don’t look like the teeth I used to have, and now I recognize that it was just another example of things I had taken my identity from passing out of my environment, including my teeth. It’s just part of the stripping away that seems to be involved in this return to the vastness we truly are. I am thinking and feeling that “the return” is strongly underway, and that was part of the reason I had to take down the Operation Terra web site for a while. It was to take away an external point of reference, drive us more deeply within ourselves, and require us to become more self-reliant and less dependent on “news” from the outside, even from the Hosts.

Everything in me is registering that there is very little time left in which we will experience relative normalcy. The book I am working on this week could very well be the last one I ever do, and four months seems like a very plausible amount of time in which to complete this transition and return to that vastness and state of unity with All That Is. From there, we can (and will) create anything needed by the whole. On one more odd note in all of this, yesterday morning I was guided to put up the Operation Terra site again. It will not be added to, as this site is where all of the “news” is being described, and this ongoing “Return” is certainly the best news of all!

Love to all,

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20 Comments on “The Return

June 15, 2016 at 2:25 PM

Greetings, I’m jumping right “to the end of the book” here, I apologize, just came across this Blog. But you see, Traveler, if you didn’t resurrect the original OT website, I doubt I would ever find it! So that was “guided” with purpose I suppose, not odd at all.
The way this pesky time dilation was extended, I knew that if original source is of any integrity at least general situation updates likely to return.

But I better start reading from the beginning.

And, by the way, where is everyone else??

June 15, 2016 at 2:57 PM

Well, at least I got that one right! 🙂 Yes, read from the beginning, and if you are in touch with anyone you think will resonate with this perspective, let them know to join us here.


— Traveler

June 15, 2016 at 3:26 PM

Oh thank you! When after sudden internal stirring I finally came across OT info about a year ago, it “struck home” big time, even sort of déjà-vu was involved. Info neatly filled several gaping holes in my understanding mosaic at the time.
But sadly, looks like among those with whom I had contact recently, I’m the “only one still standing”. Meaning I currently personally know no one, who would even seem to share common destination.

June 15, 2016 at 3:34 PM

Yes, a lot who used to be tuned in to OT have gone in other directions. At its peak the OT mailing list had 10,000 people on it and over 4 million people visited the site before I stopped counting. Now the AUV mailing list is at a total of 63 names, and not many people are aware of the Blog, but I felt to do it anyway. I think things are going to get very interesting this summer, so perhaps some will see the OT site again and find their way here. I am totally surrendered about every thing. I know I am not in charge and the scripts will be fulfilled, no matter what I do or don’t do. It will all sort out as it is meant to.

June 15, 2016 at 3:53 PM

For last several months I wondered several times what “average profile” of 3rd wave person might be? May that be that many of them are still appear rather “stealthy” and have option to choose at the exact juncture? Is it ultimately why we are “waiting” for so long – because 3rd wavers are slow on getting their “act” together?..

June 15, 2016 at 4:19 PM

I have no idea about any of that anymore. I have had to let go of ALL the pictures I had about waves, how it would go, when or why. At the moment, I am relying more on my inner sense of things, and feel strongly that the time is short — perhaps four months at most — before it all resolves. As you might also discover in reading my posts, right now I am strongly leaning toward the idea that I will first expand back into my totality as an eloha, and from there, project a life via my Overoul that will be the one I use for my 4D adventures. I know that my husband and I end up on Terra, and that many years later, we will leave and together follow our own way, which will not be a 4D existence anymore. I live one day at a time, wait to see what shows up, and then respond to it the best I can. I leave the details to those on the higher planes who know much more than I do about what is needed and when.

June 16, 2016 at 9:08 PM

Thank you for the enlightening experience you shared about Dr. Kamiya, meditating and Alpha waves. I am in “awe” of this and I know that if we meditate on a daily basis it can change your life. This is good timing for me as it is needed. I also have been releasing things that bother me and trying to look at everyone as one and not be annoyed by things that happen why we are here. The message I received from this in- depth article was to continue and meditate on a regular basis as it is greatly needed. I find it hard to shut down and working on techniques. I will also read the article on Alpha brain waves. I appreciate you sharing about ants as I had an invasion after rain this spring and it is amazing all they can do for their size. I also do not want them in my house. Thanks again for this article and all your sharing it really helps and you are a true inspiration.

June 20, 2016 at 1:49 AM

I felt the exact same reasons for you taking the site down, knowing full well before hand that it would be gone and oddly enough a month before you put it back up I was waiting for it to return… Even thought I sensed that there would not be ‘new’ info there… I was confused about knowing that there would be new info on the web/… now I understand why. How fun to see things unfold as they do. So exciting. : )

So many syncs online and in life lately… will be even MORE exciting to watch it all play out!

June 20, 2016 at 2:03 AM

Also have had this experience of knowing everyone as familiar! It is one of the most exciting and fun ways to go through your day!! Hands down. Recently it has been happening again with more frequency and forcefulness… more in-the-momentness is what comes to mind. It feels so perfectly right. Even thought this state tends to only last a short time for me I have made some fascinating new contacts this way and continue to be like a kid-with-my-hand-in-the-cookie-jar excited HAHA

One thing I do not do is share this type of thing with anyone in my current life situation. It for now, only seems to be for me. Maybe, allowing others to be themselves by being yourself thing, might be more accurate.

I have never had the urge to meditate and have had frequent fears wondering if there is something ‘wrong’ with me for never doing so (more than a few very short stints)… I know there is not… Ive come to the conclusion that it is either still one of my fears that I have not worked through or something I don’t particularly need, for what ever reason. It is what it is. I’ll let it work itself out on its own.

June 20, 2016 at 8:23 AM


I practiced formal meditation for 8 years. Now I try to live my life as my meditation. There is actually at least one formal method called karma yoga that tries to do that, but I just try to be mindful as much as possible in all situations, and to quiet myself when I notice that I am agitated or stirred up. Seeking peace has become my meditation practice, and when I am settled into my core and center (calm, grounded and centered), that’s when I relate to life “correctly.” I RESPOND, rather than REACT, and that makes for a better result every time.

I don’t recognize your name, but am glad you have joined us here. Welcome!


William Haley
June 20, 2016 at 11:03 PM


Was your transition into a more peaceful existence possible before we went through the clearings ? I don’t think my own transition was possible before some of the past trauma and fear programs were neutralized. Mainly because I spent a lot of my life consciously wanting to be more peaceful but simply could not achieve.

Some of the standard operations that we have to go through in order to get a rapid concrete repair order done in the hours allowed are stressful by there on right. Heat, humidity, traffic and such make up some of the joys. Lately all of these conditions have been present but it seems like my dreamlike state is allowing me to glide through the same conditions and not even notice them. It seems to be partly that my soul already knows my 3D tours are over so it is wanting to almost disregard everything happening. Knowing on the inner level that this show is up. I spent my whole life working and worrying.

I feel I deserve a months off before we all permanently retire.

Buffalo bill

June 21, 2016 at 7:57 AM


You may get that month off if the financial collapse occurs! I can not imagine being the person I used to be before these clearings, nor would I want to be. My own currently peaceful state is occasionally marred by episodes of anxiety that are triggered by external events, such as having to interact with people through my paid work (I’m still not a “people person”), but when I am not actively engaged with others and am just doing my thing on my own, I truly experience the “peace that passes understanding.” That ker-chunk last Thursday really settled me into my seat for the rest of the ride and I am truly content to remain there.


William Haley
June 21, 2016 at 3:40 PM

Couldn’t agree more. My world without the input of the people involved in my livelihood is encredibly peaceful now. Our job would be difficult in the air conditioning. But when you throw in the weather elements, keeping the operation on budget, people operating under stress and the government on your back can make for a rather tense filled day.

The reason most travelers aren’t people people is because we are masterfully informed and the orthodox portion of the human domain is uninformed, making for artificial conversation at best, argumentative at the worst. People seeking harmony don’t need either and simply put up with it while we have to.

Wankan tanka

June 20, 2016 at 10:03 AM


Life as my meditation. I like this.

Having the awareness that there is no choice because all possible choices are being explored simultaneously is quite the mind-full. Which just leaves us to decide which choice we are choosing in each moment. What version of reality we will find in each NOW.

I have been following OT before I was even in this incarnation lol. Other than that I have followed the site for years and emailed you a couple times just before the site was taken down. I knew nothing about the forums until the last moment.

I have always deeply resonated with the messages and the op. The last few years I have known posts would be up before they were posted and those confirmations have brought about a whole new dimension to my own personal path that I would not have previously even considered. I resonate to dates that you have posted, in regards to this year and previous years. As always, understanding that such things tend to change in unexpected ways and that there is really not much point in trying to predict so much as giving some general guidelines.

Everything is as it should be and while it gives some dimension to things being able to reach into what appears to be the future and ‘see’ things… It is really just another depth to what has been previously described as “Ocean”. The complexity of which likely boggles even the most intelligent… yet its simplicity is exactly what makes it available for understanding. If that makes sense.

William Haley
June 20, 2016 at 10:03 PM

How much did you look into the Pineal gland ? I found my entire research into it fascinating times two.

Buffalo Bill

June 21, 2016 at 8:02 AM

Not much at all, other than to note more recently that studies show that fluoride calcifies the pineal gland, which is why I think it’s being put in water supplies throughout this country. I associate the pineal gland with the 7th/Crown chakra, which is our way of connecting with higher realities. Rendering it inactive through fluoridation of water supplies would effectively diminish people’s ability to access higher realities, but that’s as far as I have gone with that. I have only used pure water since 1984 because I am allergic to chlorine. However, this experience happened when I was around 25 years of age, and may have been more resilient then. Would you care to summarize what you have learned about the pineal gland in your travels?


William Haley
June 21, 2016 at 6:05 PM

To all fellow travelers,

I had two paragraphs of additional information on the Pineal gland created and I accidently deleted it. I’m pissed. Will recreate later.

In short, the pineal glands importants is ancient knowledge, it’s negative polarity utilization came here in the material from operation Paperclip after World War Two from Germany .

The Pineal glands structure has many components of our two viewing eyès and the size of the bone socket that it sits in indicates it use to be much bigger. When sun gazing is done as the Essenes did the Pg begins to grow in size. It is doubtful the Essenes knew of the size change and only needed the effects of the sun gazing regardless if it grew in size or not . But recent simple technology has verified it. It grows in size all the way to 44 mins. Did it myself. The gland has two different groups of highly technical cells along with its basic eye makeup. One set of cells designed for transmitting and one group for receiving . Both highly complex cells known in medicine as such and the groups are multi-tunable. Appear to communicate with all densities when fully activated

The same people that kept and keep this from humanity are the same ones that hide everything else from you. Some ancients believed the Pg was exactly where the silver chord connected to the light body and the transmitting and receiving cells participated. Like the transmitting cells in the heart. Why would the heart have transmitting cells ? Who knows .

The Pg research was enlightening and facinating .

Today, not to change the subject, I left in my truck like always to go to work and about 2 miles from home I slowed down to 10 mph to check on my brother in laws house. As I looked through the wind shield there was the upper part of snake and he was slowly crawling up toward the window on the passenger side
that was open two inches. Horrified I slammed on the brake to get out of the truck and this huge snake, that must have went from one side of the hood to the other, came sliding out of the groove between the hood and windshield where the wipers rest. The force from the braking made the whole snake come out, slide across the hood and into the grass on the shoulder.
I won’t add the words I used on this site but know. I don’t like to wake up like that !

That’s how my day started. I have been around snake since I was 4. Never liked em, had a freind die from one and I hate em today just like I did when I was 4. Much of our work requires the clearing of land. Snakes are as common as the other hazards. Comes with field.

I probably transmit 20 seconds of alpha wave based on what the captain has stated. I have zero intuitive skills and probably come very close to being consider just an refined educated southern red neck so I need help deciphering if the snake scene has a symbolic meaning ?


February 6, 2017 at 5:11 PM

Oriole & All,

I am curious as to what this sentence may lead to as a discussion: “we can (and will) create anything needed by the whole.”

This sentence stood out for me because it is exactly what I have been experiencing lately but is an extention of what has been a life time of experience as well. There is not much that if I make a decision on does not manifest itself. This can be something as simple as a parking place to a traffic signal change that I intend on. Nothing that has manifested instantly, but within seconds for the light change. There are other things as well but this is a stay anyways. I have found the more I intend the less I need think on something and what ever it is arrives. With all the interest and excitement of arriving in sometimes very unexpected ways. Has anyone else experienced or has been experiencing anything similar? I can go into more detail with other things if need and when i have more time and battery left in my phone.


February 6, 2017 at 5:14 PM

I realize that those examples are not necessarily something needed by the whole, though I suppose if it was not needed in some way it would not work…? And by work I mean I’ve done it enough that there is no chance that it is by accident. I would suspect that not many of us believe in accidents by now lol

Boris / Adir / Galen
February 6, 2017 at 8:07 PM

I’ve had frequent occurrences of things manifesting in the past years. This past Saturday, for example, Oriole and I were shopping at the local co-op and I wanted their green recyclable bag (not free) and when we were checking out, Oriole, on the spur of the moment, decided she wanted to become a member of the co-op. And guess what? That granted us a free green recyclable bag with their logo on it!

I am thinking, maybe my “decision making” is simply foreseeing the script – foreseeing what is going to manifest anyway?

Also, I’m thinking that if I want something and it feels right to have it then I also get it (eventually). Otherwise, it doesn’t materialize.



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